Stress, No Stress, Stress, No Stress, Irritation...

This morning wasn't too bad. Actually my whole day wasn't too bad until math. But I'll start from lunch because I generally enjoy lunch the most out of all my classes, besides drama. Well, I had lunch in Sil's office, as usual. Amber came in and helped me with looking at reviews of my character. I'm really bad at that kind of thing, so having her there helped a lot. I decied to do a Jennifer and give Sil M&M's. My reasoning...1)she was dying for chocolate the other day, 2)she wouldn't necessarily have to suffer with line problems becuase she'd have M&M's to keep her company, and 3)she couldn't hate me for possibly not knowing all my lines because I gave her chocolate. Then I went to History, where I pretty much did nothing. And when I say nothing I mean I worked on making our poster look pretty. Then drama came. We worked on our scenes and Emma and I tested eachother on lines for the play. Then the trouble started. As you know, I was frusterated from not really getting the homework last night and I knew Allnutt was just going to pile more homework on top of this one. So we learned new stuff (finally away from vectors) and then he gave us homework. So I spent the rest of the time doing last night's homework. He handed back the quiz we took Friday and that's when I lost it. I had gotten a D...the worst grade I had gotten on a test since 7th grade when everyone failed the test so it didn't matter. I wasn't too bad until everyone else started to complain about missing 8 problems. 8 problems! At least their grade wasn't a D!!! I was so saddened that I started to cry...something I haven't done in a very very long time. I couldn't concentrate on the assignment and I couldn't bring myself to look at my overall grade. So for the last 15 minutes of class, I was in tears (though I tried to hide it). Then I loked at my grade on the way out...an A-. Not bad but it will only go down from there. The new stuff we were learning was logs (were logs?). Anyway, I remember doing them, but I am a little shaky on them. So I went to play practice in tears. Sil saw me as she was leaving to go to her office before practice started and Amber, Christina, Emma, and Ryan gave me big hugs and listened to me and gave me comfort. What would I do without them? Then Sil came in and called us to practice. Before we started however, she gave me some M&M's. Play practice started adn all thougth of math was erased. I had a glorious hour and a half, where my lines were pretty much solid. I only laughed at one part (when Josh mimes to me what I'm supposed to say), but everyone was laughing so I didn't feel too bad. After play practice, Sil, Amber, Emma, and I had a talk about my problem. Sil says to talk to Mr. McKee about it. She also asked if I wanted to get this credit for math or go for the full IB diploma. Well seeing as how I have to do the diploma and frankly I really just don't like math right now, I said the diploma. She then said that I shouldn't kill myself over a class I don't even need to take. I totally agree. Actually, I didn't even want to take the class. I just wanted math in my brain. But I can't stand not knowing what the heck we're doing. And I'd ask Mr. Allnutt for help, but I can't stay after because of play practice. Yes, I know that's an excuse, but I just really hate the class. So I'm going to talk to Mr. McKee and see if I can drop it...after talking to Mr. Allnutt about it first of course. See what he thinks I should do.

So what would I do with the spare 5th period? Either go volunteer at Brown Middle School in the choir or be a teacher aid. The latter sounds better to me so then I could do homework.

Anyway, so I came home kind of depressed. I tried to do some math, but ended up yelling at teh book and throwing it on the couch. Yeah, I didn't understand how the book got the answers it did. So pretty much my last half of my paper is question marks. I didn't go to 2 dance classes because I felt rotten and I needed to get homework done that is due tomorrow.

I planned on going to RCB because Gavin Larson from OBT was coming to teach. I loved the class. It was a great outlet for me. Miss Elizabeth even took class. Gosh, I really miss dance. I can't wait unitl Saturday when I have Musical Theatre!!!!!

Since I still had a few more things to do before my homework was complete, I finished what is due tomorrow, with the help of my parents. I'm so glad they are willing to help me. I guess all those years of not letting htme help has paid off.

Michelle called tonight. I'm glad she did!

Dad made Wicked on a tape so now I can listen to it in my car (yes my car is lame and only plays tapes). The quality isn't that good but I'll be singing to it all the time so it doesn't matter.

Night all!