Help Me Out
It could be the fact that right now my life is whizzing by, or maybe it's the fact that too much is happening.....
In short, I feel depressed. I don't want to do anything but sit and eat. Ok, I lied already. I want to hang out with friends. I want to be with friends. I don't want to do homework, I don't want to dance, I don't want to go to Dance Team, I don't want to go to school, I don't want to do this movie thing that Mom, Dad, and me are doing and are going to be gone most likely from 6:30 PM-6:00 AM, I don't want to worry about whether or not my audition for Otterbein was enough, I don't want to worry about college auditions in general, I don't want to sing, I don't want to go to voice lessons, I don't want to write an essay for English, I don't want to study for a test in Physics, I don't want to worry about grades in general...I just want to sit, eat, and hang out.
I know this feeling is probably more Senioritis than it is depression, but it sure feels like depression (not that I've had it). I need to get away. I need to pull a Charlotte....go to the beach. I was really tempted to do so today, but then the thought about the movie thing came into my head. As the time to leave looms nearer, I become more and more unwilling to go. I don't want to stay up until 6:00 AM to be in a movie where I'll probably not be seen anyway, or not be needed but have to stay anyway, just in case. If I were there with other people than just my mom and dad, things might be different. But Brooke isn't coming because it is really late for her to stay up and we wouldn't be in the same spot anyway. Not that Mom and Dad aren't fun...it's just that Brooke and I share a lot of inside jokes and I feel more comfortable goofy off with her than I do with my parents. I'd invite anyone who reads this to come along for the shoot, but I don't think they need any more extras. And besides, the paid extras (18 and older) aren't where the volunteer extras (17 and under) are. So I wouldn't see any of you anyway.
In case you are wondering, I didn't go skating as I had planned. This si due mainly to my current state of depression (or Senioritis) and the fact that my sister had 2 friends come and I had a grand total of zero. Not that I don't enjoy my sister's friends...but her friends and I don't get along nearly as well as Brooke gets along with you guys. So now I am at home, wishing I was anywhere but here and about to do homework.
Sad news on the Chuck E Cheese front....it opens at 10:00...not 9:00. This means one whole hour is cut. That makes me really sad. Darn you dance team and having to practice for 6 hours!!!! Ok, also bad job on the Chuck E Cheese web site for lying to me. But yeah.....I'm not looking forward to a 6 hour practice. But I guess it's better than having a Saturday practice...right?
I need a hug.
There is some good news....I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Gieco. Sorry, couldn't resist. Anywho....OUAM DVDs are being made. It is the night of February 10th. If you feel that you would like a different night, we can make another night for you, however, it won't be nearly as fancy as the 10th. I've seen part of it, and it's pretty cool. We have the 2 camera effect going on.
I feel better...but I still would rather be anywhere but here. I need to go to the Happiest Place on Earth.
In short, I feel depressed. I don't want to do anything but sit and eat. Ok, I lied already. I want to hang out with friends. I want to be with friends. I don't want to do homework, I don't want to dance, I don't want to go to Dance Team, I don't want to go to school, I don't want to do this movie thing that Mom, Dad, and me are doing and are going to be gone most likely from 6:30 PM-6:00 AM, I don't want to worry about whether or not my audition for Otterbein was enough, I don't want to worry about college auditions in general, I don't want to sing, I don't want to go to voice lessons, I don't want to write an essay for English, I don't want to study for a test in Physics, I don't want to worry about grades in general...I just want to sit, eat, and hang out.
I know this feeling is probably more Senioritis than it is depression, but it sure feels like depression (not that I've had it). I need to get away. I need to pull a Charlotte....go to the beach. I was really tempted to do so today, but then the thought about the movie thing came into my head. As the time to leave looms nearer, I become more and more unwilling to go. I don't want to stay up until 6:00 AM to be in a movie where I'll probably not be seen anyway, or not be needed but have to stay anyway, just in case. If I were there with other people than just my mom and dad, things might be different. But Brooke isn't coming because it is really late for her to stay up and we wouldn't be in the same spot anyway. Not that Mom and Dad aren't fun...it's just that Brooke and I share a lot of inside jokes and I feel more comfortable goofy off with her than I do with my parents. I'd invite anyone who reads this to come along for the shoot, but I don't think they need any more extras. And besides, the paid extras (18 and older) aren't where the volunteer extras (17 and under) are. So I wouldn't see any of you anyway.
In case you are wondering, I didn't go skating as I had planned. This si due mainly to my current state of depression (or Senioritis) and the fact that my sister had 2 friends come and I had a grand total of zero. Not that I don't enjoy my sister's friends...but her friends and I don't get along nearly as well as Brooke gets along with you guys. So now I am at home, wishing I was anywhere but here and about to do homework.
Sad news on the Chuck E Cheese front....it opens at 10:00...not 9:00. This means one whole hour is cut. That makes me really sad. Darn you dance team and having to practice for 6 hours!!!! Ok, also bad job on the Chuck E Cheese web site for lying to me. But yeah.....I'm not looking forward to a 6 hour practice. But I guess it's better than having a Saturday practice...right?
I need a hug.
There is some good news....I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Gieco. Sorry, couldn't resist. Anywho....OUAM DVDs are being made. It is the night of February 10th. If you feel that you would like a different night, we can make another night for you, however, it won't be nearly as fancy as the 10th. I've seen part of it, and it's pretty cool. We have the 2 camera effect going on.
I feel better...but I still would rather be anywhere but here. I need to go to the Happiest Place on Earth.
posted by Crystal @ 2:37 PM
2 Comments:
At 7:55 PM,
Charlotte said…
Ah, honey, you should have come to the beach with me today. It was absolutely beautiful and so relaxing! We'll have to do it sometime soon.
At 1:18 AM,
kirsten said…
I love you!!! I have a big hug for you.. huge, in fact. Sorry i couldn't go skating with you even if for a short time. hmmmmm... chocolate? yes, i think this calls for it. are you doing anything tomorrow night at all? after your dance team, that is?
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