The Last Day of the First Night

This is what Cora called it. She said, "This is the last day of our first night!" And she's right. Tonight was the last day for the senior's first night of State competition. Strangely enough, I'm not sad. But I know I will be tomorrow. Anywho, State was fun. We didn't have to get up insanely early....BIG plus!!!!!! We danced very well. I watched the tape and we look good. All of the parents said that we did really good and that we definitely have a chance to win. Also, Heather and Bradian were very happy with our performance. Now step two is going to be doing it exactly how we did it today. I know we'll pull it off. Funny story though, at the end, no one clapped and so I started to count really loud, expecting claps, but since no one did, I only heard me. It was a good one. The reason no one clapped at first was because many other dances had music to get them off the floor so the audience was expecting us to do the same. Oh well...they clapped a lot after they realized that we were indeed done. In other news, Miriam, Cora, and Amanda all made the All-State Dance Team. I give a big congrats to them as well as a snicker. Why a snicker you ask? Well....they now have to stress about the dance, remember the dance, spend time after finale to practice the dance, and look like they are having fun while performing this lovely dance. I get to sit back, relax, adn enjoy not performing this dance I loved soooo much. Also, you may ask yourself, "Is she ok with not making the All-State Team?" My answer is "Yes". I am perfectly fine with it....one less stressful situation in my life. I am totoally fine, in fact I don't really care that I didn't make it. It's all good. Congrats to Margaret as well!!!! She got a $750 scholarship!!!! I'm excited for tomorrow. We're gonna kick some booty!

I had a really nice talk with Sil today before the cometition. I'm really really glad we talked. We talked for an hour and five minutes. Sil's up there in the longest phone conversation contest. Actually, I think she's winning.

You might find a new change in me. I have decided that I will not let every little thing bother me. I will not put up with crap from people who are going to drag me down. I am going to spend an hour every night doing something just for me; whether it's spending time with someone, spending time with a group of people, spending time alone, watching a Disney movie.....anything. I am not going to get so stressed out over homework. If I don't get it all done, that's ok. Life will move on. If someone is pulling me down into depression, I am going to get tough with them. I am going to make sure I have time to have fun and not be so hard on myself. I am not going to try and make everyone happy...it's not my job. If they aren't happy, it's their problem, not mine. I know this change is going to be long and hard, but I'm going to do it. Even if it takes the rest of the school year, I am going to do it. I am going to make my last 3 months of senior year as fun as I can.

Since Christa is gone, Diana asked if I would step in as her pretend sister. Of course I took the offer. I mean, who could resist taking on a cool pretend sister like Diana and filling Christa's shoes for a bit? Certainly not me. Also, Margaret is the pretend Mohan so that I won't have to go without my man. I must say we make a very cute Christa and Mohan.

I need sleep now. I had a long day adn tomorrow is going to be very long as well.