Stress Yet Totally Calm
Why am I stressed? SAT's this weekend, math test Thrsday, closing of the play this weekend, Century coming to the performance tomorrow, plan of investigation and summary of evidence due next Thursday, musical auditions tomorrow, keeping up witht eh readings and notes for Black Boy, TOK assignments/projects, TOK paper for IB, Extended Essay, college applications...so much to do and so little time.
Why am I totally calm? Well, that statemnet is really a total lie, except for the musical audition. I'm really not that nervous at all. I found myself thinking, "I don't really care". Now whether that meant what part I get or I don't care about auditions in general, I don't know. But I find myself totally at ease when I think of this audition. While others are freaking out, I find myself thinking, "Another audition...whatever" You know the feeling? I might feel this way because of something she said to me earlier, or because she wants me to choreograph everything in the musical so I know I'll do something in it anyway, or....I really don't know. I'm just not nervous at all. Now, that might change tomorrow, but I really just want to get it over with.
Bubba and I had a nice talk with Heather today. We went to ask her if we could try-out for the musical and she said yes, though she was concerned about the dates. Nothing conlicts except the usual Mondays and Wednesdays. So I'm going to hopefully fix that. I know Auntie Cathie would go balistic if she knew I was pretty much doing someone else's job, but I'm afraid it won't get done if I don't do it and then that would cause conflict and suddenly people would have to choose between dance team and the plays. I wouldn't want that. So i get to do the dirty work and negotiate with Sil. Hopefully we'll get to do it like last year, where we missed Mondays and Wednesdays of play practice until January, and then showed up to practice at 5:30 (when it started) so that the dance teamers could do both dance team and play practice. That would be rally nice if that could happen again.
Well, I should do some Black Boy now. And then it's either History reading log or sleep. I might choose the latter.
Why am I totally calm? Well, that statemnet is really a total lie, except for the musical audition. I'm really not that nervous at all. I found myself thinking, "I don't really care". Now whether that meant what part I get or I don't care about auditions in general, I don't know. But I find myself totally at ease when I think of this audition. While others are freaking out, I find myself thinking, "Another audition...whatever" You know the feeling? I might feel this way because of something she said to me earlier, or because she wants me to choreograph everything in the musical so I know I'll do something in it anyway, or....I really don't know. I'm just not nervous at all. Now, that might change tomorrow, but I really just want to get it over with.
Bubba and I had a nice talk with Heather today. We went to ask her if we could try-out for the musical and she said yes, though she was concerned about the dates. Nothing conlicts except the usual Mondays and Wednesdays. So I'm going to hopefully fix that. I know Auntie Cathie would go balistic if she knew I was pretty much doing someone else's job, but I'm afraid it won't get done if I don't do it and then that would cause conflict and suddenly people would have to choose between dance team and the plays. I wouldn't want that. So i get to do the dirty work and negotiate with Sil. Hopefully we'll get to do it like last year, where we missed Mondays and Wednesdays of play practice until January, and then showed up to practice at 5:30 (when it started) so that the dance teamers could do both dance team and play practice. That would be rally nice if that could happen again.
Well, I should do some Black Boy now. And then it's either History reading log or sleep. I might choose the latter.
posted by Crystal @ 10:41 PM
1 Comments:
At 10:37 PM,
kirsten said…
Thank you, Rosa Benito! How nice of her... anyway, the reason why you were not nervous: plain and simple; we all know your part is in the bag, therefore, there's no need to sweat that... you did excellently as well... good luck on SAT's
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