Family

It has been confirmed that our family reunion will not be a real family reunion. I say this because, yes everyone is actually coming, but 4 of our family members are staying in a hotel. The reason for this is because Sarah, my cousin Mark's fiance, is staying this year. So my Aunt Leilin thought that it would be nice if she and my cousins Lori, Lisa, and Jennifer would stay in a hotel. Well usually we cram all 18 of us in one house and deal with it. But since Sarah is coming, we have to get a hotel so that she can be comfortable and not know what our real family is like. This scenario reminds me of "You Can't Take it with You". Sarah won't know what it's really like to go to a family reunion, with everyone there. Next time we'll all be scattered, like we always are. Ths is the first time, in a long time, that everyone is together. It just irritates the heck out of me that she gets special treatment, when our family really isn't the type to spend mony. We'd rather cram into one house. The Carlisle's had come up with a plan where everyone would get to stay in the hose. The only thing extra was a matress. That wasnt a problem. But the idea was shot down. Also, if Sarah realy wanted to get to know the family, one person from each family should get to sleep inthe hotel. Instead, my family is left out. Lori is from one family and Lisa and Jennifer are from te same family. Where does that leave the Carlisle's? Out in the dust! I feel really left out. My aunt didn't even think about one person in each family staying in the hotel room. It's too late to suggest that now though. Brooke and I are going to be left with the boys. No female bonding time. To me, this family reunion won't be a real one because there won't be the "everyone in one house" thing. Also, this arrangement means no staying up late watching Lisa play video games because she has to drive to the hotel. No staying up late to watch movies because the girls have to stay at the hotel. It's so unfair that our last reunion together as a whole big family won't really be together. I could use some advice, comments, anything. I feel really down. Thanks for reading. Merry Christmas.

Research Commission

It's done! It's done! Yesterday I finished it at 5:00 PM ish. I'm sooo excited! I would have written yesterday but the computer was being stupid. But it doesn't matter now because I'm done! Oh happy day!

It feels good to write finally

I have decided that computer viruses are very irritating and stupid. That's the reason I haven't written in a while. Well that and the computer I am writing on now wasn't functioning properly. But now both computers work (though the other one still can't go to the internet).

I also have decided that I should have started my research commission for drama a lot sooner (like when i found out about it). I'm just greatful that Sil is letting us email it to her over the break. Too many things are going on for me to be able to do well on this paper. IB English is not fun. I don't enjoy reading because I have to find symbols, themes, plot, etc. I like to read because it's fun. Actually looking for things like style and everything lse detracts from the book, I think. I miss certain points or underline certain things but can't figure out what color to highlight it. This makes me cranky. Also, doing comp books on top of that is no joy ride. What ever happened to "Here are 10 vocab words. I would like you to write them in a sentence that makes sense or in a story, if you prefer."? I miss that. And because of Engilsh and drama, I won't be able to enjoy my brea nearly as uch as I could. Oh well, that's one of the draw backs of IB I guess.

My French teacher makes me so mad somethimes. If anyone has an angry monolouge they could see me do, I'm open for it becuase I could deffinitely portray anger. I have plenty of memories to choose from. She also makes me laugh because tomorrow we have an oral. She gave us the stuff we're supposed to say yesterday and says "OK you should all ahve it memorized. Third years if you need notes that's ok but IB students, no. And just to let you know, my first years are doing the same oral, only without laquelle, without notes. But pas de stress" (which means "no stress"). Yeah right no stress. She tends to say that a lot when it comes to orals of any sort, like the one I did for a final. IB students were requiered to have theirs memorized. No problem. Friday comes (our orals were going to be Tues. and Wed.) and we all decied that IB students will go on Wed. because we have to be memorized. Well Tuesday comes and none, except one, third year group is ready. The other groups' excuses are mainly that they had excellent props but they didnt bring them all in. So Madame (teacher) is a little irritated but says that the IB students will got then. All of us look at each other and say "We're not supposed to go today." That pushed her over the edge. She yelled and was really irritated. So she said that we could go tomorrow but she didn't know if everyone would get in, seeing as it was Wed and a shorter period. This made all of the IB students angry because the third years had already agreed to going on Tues. And also, this one girl could have gone but she had made "really great props" and her partner wasn't there so she couldn't go. Well, another group had gone with someone not there and s another student filled in for them. But oh no, it was ok for this particular student because none of us had a life like hes that we could possibly understand. Yes, I do understand. Maybe she has parent problems , but I have problems too. Madame told me that she has a life that I couldn't understand (she said this when she had put this girl in my group for a team thing we have in class. The reason she told me was to say that she wasn't really reliable). That made it sound like I didn't have anything going on in my life that could possibly make me not perform as well as I could. Like I wasn't extremely busy. Anyway, everything regarding the oral worked out in the end and we all went but, argggggg! She makes me irritated sometimes. That's all I'm going to say on that subject.

Also what makes me unhappy are people being irritated at me, or the dance team. Especially teams who 1)haven't been before and 2) are for no good reason. If you really want to know you can ask becaus eI don't feel like typing another long angry story.

Play practice went ok. It's really hard to just throw in the piano. It gets irritating after a while, but I know it'll get better because after we practice a bit with it, we'll all become one big happy instrument. This score is also very unfriendly. It's hard to come in and find the right note. The piano sometimes helps. I hope we get better quickly so I don't have to hear Sil yell at us constantly. Oh play practice.

On a happy note, the pictures from the Nutcracker came. My dad and I watchedf them. It was cool. A lot of good pictures were taken. I can't wait til the video! I hope it comes soon!

I love computers that work. It's so nice. Well I should get to bed. But hey, I get to sleep in until 7:10 because I don't have zero period tomorrow! Yeah!

Last Nutcracker

Tonight was my last Nutcracker at my studio for my high school career. It's very sad. I almost cried before I went on stage but I saved myself. The tears didn't flow until the curtain was shut. Let me tell you, it was very difficult to keep the tears back until the curtains closed. I will really miss Nutcracker; it'll always be apart of me. Lynn says she wants me to come back and help in two years, and I'd love to but I'll probably be away at collage. I'll make time...I guess. My instructor, Elizabeth, said that I am definitely welcome back to be a guest performer, which made me feel good inside. It's an empty feeling knowing that you won't be doing Nutcracker your senior year even though you've done it since you were three. But what can you do? This production was prbably the best one I have been apart of. I am grateful to all of the teachers for giving me the opportunity to dance Snow Queen and to all of the dancers for putting up with my yelling/telling them what to do/etc. I really don't know what I'm going to do with myself now that Nutcracker's over, besides move on. Next year, the people in my dressing room think that we should do...........The Nutctracker, but I know for sure that we won't be. So instead, a group of us at Red Robins decided we should do Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty. Can we say "If we can't do Nutcracker we want to do another ballet!" Oh well, I guess it's going to be some Broadway something or other, like Annie was. My concern is that dancers usually don't sing as well as they dance so if it's another singing/dancing thing or the adults get all the leads like in Annie, I don't know if I'll do it. Yes it sounds rude/mean/not like me/whatever, but nothing will ever be able to take the place of Nutcracker. It is my joy in life. Next Christmas will seem empty. But oh well. I am blessed to have been able to be the parts I was and do the things I did. Lynn even let me light the tree tonight during party scene. I won't ever forget this production. It was the best one yet. Now let the waiting for the tapes begin.

Nutcracker

Tonight was opening night of "The Nutcracker". It was awesome. There were soooo many people. Everything ran smoothly, which is good. I was able to turn pretty well, even though the floor is different than the studio floor so I'm still getting used to it. There were/are only 2 bad things. One: I have a blister on my left big toe (the one I do all of my piroettes on). Two: The wings I use for Mother Arch Angel broke (but it's ok because I hate them with a passion). So tonight I went on stage without any wings. Oh darn. Anyways, it was a great opening night. Everyone danced beautifully. Oh, and I'm really excited because not only was my name in the program as "Director's Assistant" but also as.............choreographer for the Sugar Plum Variation! I thought that they weren't going to put my name there because I was a student, but they did. For those who didn't know, the Sugar Plum is doing the variation that I have been doing for I think 4 years now (only at in studio performances). So I was/am really excited to get credit for my variation. Well it's late and I really should get to bed. Good night!