TOK is finished...and Musical Practice didn't go too badly

Well, the project is finished. I'm soooo glad. It took forever and eternity! But it was fun.

As much as I stressed, the musical dances went ok. I didn't finish Shy, but I didn't expect to. The actual dance part of it looks pretty neat.

Oh, school was delayed 2 hours because of snow/ice...however, I didn't see any. It was nice getting 6 hours of sleep, since I had been up until 2 doing choreography. I hung out in Sil's office during 1st period because I had done my final earlier, so I got to go in and choreograph things...or at least try to choreograph. Mainly I was kind of depressed still from last night. But, I got a 1/2 pound Hershy chocolate bar from Arrio, Kirsten, Charlotte, and Ryan. I should be really depressed more often...just kidding. 3rd period went ok. My DBQ from Maia was really easy to answer. It was straight forward...like they should be. I found myself English-a-fying it however. I kept asking myself, "So what? Who cares?" about every quote I wrote down. It was gross. The only class I really ahd to worry about was 5th...math. It actually went fairly well. I was able to solve a problem I wasn't able to when we were learning the stuff. That made me pretty happy. After the final in math, I started to choreograph Normandy. I'm actually ok wiht what I have. I think I have to be in class not paying attention in order to get choreography I like. I have come to this conclusion because I have come up with a lot of choreography in Physics. Interesting concept. Anyway, since school started late, we didn't have 2nd or 4th period...like we usually do. And that was fine with me.

Well, I have a Physics final tomorrow over everything I have learned ov erhte course of 2 years. I should probably study. NIght!

Stress=Choreographing 2 dances and not knowing where the Teacher Rec Froms Are

So first off, I just had a mental breakdown. I can't handle choreographing these last 2 group numbers. I don't think I'll get Normandy done tomorrow because 1)I don't know what it sounds like so I can't sing it in my head, and 2) I can barely get Shy done. Shy is really irritating me becausde it really is a "Watch Kirsten sing" song. So the chorus is pretty much standing there the whole time watching Kirsten until the dance number where only a few people will actually do real dancing while the rest are on the sides doing some movement of some kind. My formation is a U shape, something I've done for at least 5 other dances. So not only is it unorigional, but it's boring. I know Sil will want the chorus to do something besides stand there because everyone will look bored if they do just stand there. But I don't know what to have the chorus do. I hate this. I can't handle the stress. I know that I don't really have to get the choreography done if I mentally can't handle it, but I feel even more obligated to get it done because we're a day behind because I was doing the Grinch. So it's my fault we're behind. I hate this feeling.

Now on to the second stress. In order to apply to some colleges I'd like to, I need 2 teacher recs. No problem if I knew where the student evaluation form I had in my binder had escaped to. I took out the packet it was in to let Mom and Dad use it to fill out my accomplishments for some apps. Naturally, it has gone missing. So that is stressing me out too. I know I can get more in the Counciling Office, but it was just irritating how thingsa disappear so easily.

Tomorrow is day 1 of finals. I'm not worried because I've done English, History is a DBQ, and Math is a quiz where even if I fail I'll still have a B...don't worry I won't try to fail. Most likely during English, I'll be choreographing on of the songs I still have to do.

Nathan, I must say that you make me really happy. I was crying a lot when I read the comments from the previous post and I couldn't help but laugh. Now I feel a lot better. Thanks! We should still sing I'm a Little Teapot with full hand motions because it's make me feel even better. Ok? Ok!

On a better note, Sil did let Nathan and I copy our scene from Barefoot in the Park. So we have our script and we have done a pretty good job of remembering where Elizabeth cut it. However, I don't think we did all of it, but that's ok.

Well, I'd go to sleep, biut I must finish choreographing that darn song called "Shy". Kirsten, you might be the only one with choreography. Especially since everyone just stands there anyway. I hope eveyone's night was better than mine. Night.

TOK Project...and Irritation

First off I'll start with the irritation just so then the happiness is at the end. So, this morning I realized that I didn't have Nathan's and my scene in my backpack, so I called and asked Dad to bring it to school so we could perform it today. Well, he couldn't find it. I had just seen it on the table last night, so I knew it had to be there. After about 10 minutes of telling Dad the script was there somewhere, I went home to look. I couldn't find it either. I had just seen it! It had to be there! But somehow, it wasn't. Mom called to check my progress and then she said that she might have recycled it. So I went to school empty handed. It may not seem like something to get irritated about, but my script was the only one with the cuts Elizabeth had made becuase Nathan could find his. Nathan still couldn't find his this afternoon when we were supposed to perform it for critiques. I asked Sil if we could make a copy of our scene, but she said no because some "moron idiots" have taken 3 monologue/scene books and 2 of them were new, so she's not lending them out at all until she gets them back...and that includes making copies. So I hope that Maia remembers to bring her book with our scene in it so that Nathan and I don't get a zero. I think this would be my first zero in drama, and I had nothing to do with it. That really irritates me.

Also, I might get my first C of my school career...in Physics. I understand that Physics is really hard, but still. A C????!!!!!! I'll cry a lot! It's not like I don't try...I just don't do too well on tests and IB lab things that he doesn't explain what we're supposed to write. So yeah...if I'm really depressed after grades come out, you'll know why.

Oh, and I found out I cannot join the swing dancing funness for a second week because I have to sing with Chorale. I hate that! Especially since TOK projecters really didn't get anything done last night anyway. I hate overbooking myself!

On a happier note...the TOK project is almost done. We have a few more scenes to tape and we can do most of them at school. I hope we get done tomorrow! If we don't, well then...more dark scenes it is. Also, musical rehearsal is tomorrow...choreographing Song of Love. I hope it all goes well. I hope certain people don't talk all the time so that my TOK group can get some more daylight in. If certain people talk, I swear I'll shoot them! Ok, not really, but I might kick them or ram them into walls when they least expect it. :)

Night all.

Happiness Is Seeing Elizabeth Again

Today was a fun day. Well for the most part. I didn't enjoy being woken up at 9:00 for a phone call, but what can you do? Anyway, after I was woke up, Katie and Bethanye came over for some TOK project fun. We pretty much finished our script so we're going to begin taping tomorrow. Unfortunately, this means I cannot go swing dancing like origionally planned. But I will go next week. Anyway, after TOK funness, I went to HP4 with the Kulkarni's. It was fun! Kasey and Kaitlin enjoyed it, but Kaden did not so he and Dad stepped out and saw Chicken Little instead. After that, they came over to celebrate Kelly's (the mom's) birthday. That was fun. However, I left the festivities early to visit with Elizabeth, Nathan, and Kirsten. The main goal was to cut our scene, which Elizabeth graciously did. I definitely think it is about 5 minutes. That makes me excited. After cutting our scene a great time was had. We talked, laughed, danced, and got into a knot. Then it was time for dinner so Kirstne and I left. It was fun. Now I should get my drama portfolio typed up so I won't have to do it later tomorrow. Night all.

It's Happened

I had my first little fight with my grandma tonight. And by first, I mean first for this trip. I was doing so well too. How'd it happen? The internet went down and I could get on AIM or MSN, so I called Dad down. He tried to fix it, but couldn't adn ended up seeing a conversation was having with Charlotte. This meant that I was not working on my homework. So he gave me a bad time. However, I was working on my homework and talking to Charlotte and Kirsten at the same time. It's called multitasking. Anyway, so I was irritated at my dad because he was giving me a bad time (it didn't soud like he was, but he says he was), and then my grandma chips in her "You've had too much fun"...implying that I shouldnt' be talking to my friends because I've done so all break. What she didn't realize is that I was doing both homework and talking, but when she found this out, she still had her "You've had too much fun" face on. That made me irritated too. It sounds like a silly thing to have a fight over, but it was irritating at the time. Anyway, the internet is working (obviously) but I still can't get to MSN the way I usually do. So I can't check my email. Oh well.

On a happy note...Scott and Michelle came over today for our singing party and spent about 7 hours here. What did we do for 7 hours? Sang and watched old videos. It really didn't seem like 7 hours, but counting from when they arrived to when they left is 7 hours. It was a lot of fun! I'm going to miss Michelle. Thank goodness she comes back in a few weeks.

Tomorrow is a busy day. At 10:00, Jusitn, Katie, and Bethanye are coming over to do out TOK project. The at some point in the day, we're hosting a birthday party for this family (the mom's b-day) and going to see Harry Potter with them (they haven't seen it yet). Then at some point, I'm going to kidnap Nathan and Elizabeth and we're going to cut our scene. And by cut our scene I most likely mean talk a lot and get a little done. I hope I can do everything tomorrow!

I'm really excited for Sunday because Ryan, Arrio, Kirsten, and I are planning on going to a swing dance class in Portland. It's 5 dollars if anyone else wants to come.

Well, I should get back to my homework. Night!

Posts For Two Days

So this post might be long because I have 2 days to cover.

Wednesday: Besides being depressed for the last period in school (you guessed it...math), my day was great. During English, I talked for the whole 8 minutes for our commentary and I could have added on a little bit. In Physics, I was on the Honorable Mention with 34/36 on my test. In History we watched a video on China. In Drama, Michelle graced us with her presence. Then math came. I got a not so good score on my test but my grade is still a B; however I don't think I'll get an A, which makes me sad since I don't need the class to graduate, but oh well. After school, I helped some Dance Teamers with the dances. Then Charlotte, Nathan, and I had our long awaited P of the O party (Phantom of the Opera). Well, that's a lie. First, I picked up Nathan, we went to my church's Thanksgiving Eve service and then we had our P of the O party. I had a great time and I hope Nathan enjoyed hanging out with me for like 6 hours. I know I had fun.

Thursday: I went to Finding Nemo on Ice. It was cute. Not my favorite, but still cute. Then we got ready for Thanksgiving Dinner. It was delicious! Jennifer called me. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad she did. Jennifer, I MISSSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!! Michelle, Charlotte, Scott, and I had a Beauty and the Beast watching party. Well, Michelle, Charlotte, and I did, and then we got mad at Scott because he was supposed to come but decided not to, so Michelle called him and after much intense yelling, he came over. Not only did we watch B and B, but a variety of other tapes too. I had a great time. After we realized that it was 12:30, Charlotte went home and Michelle and Scott stayed for a little bit and we sang. However, we are still having our singing get together so we didn't sing much today. And it was late at night/ early in the morning so we really sounded pretty. Well, I should get some sleep.

Oh and ELIZABETH comes home TODAY!!!!!!!! (cuz it's 1:00 so it is the next day) YAY!!!!!!!

For Every Stressful Moment There Is Egyptian Rat

Today's Musical rehearsal involved me yelling about every 10 seconds. I take that back, about every 2 seconds I was yelling. Now my throat hurts. I really wanted to rip people's heads off today. It was horrible. Mainly just some people's heads fell victim to my decapitation. Sil wasn't at school today. I don't know why, but I think it was jury duty. So I was in charge of Musical rehearsal and I know all the talking wouldn't have happened if Sil had been there. However, I did make the band peopel late because I wasn't done teaching and some of them were the cause of my irritation so I said they couldn't leave until I was more satisfied with the dance. A bit cruel I know, but I was really irritated. After much yelling, Nathan, Josh, Jes, Emma, and I played Egyptian Rat and that let out a lot of steam. I ended up winning, though Nathan almost did. After that, I went to Coffee Rush with Charlotte and visited Neil. I spent at least an hour there talking adn moving either my car or my body form one window to the next so that customers could get coffee and such. It was a fun game. Then Charlotte and I went to dinner at Carl's Junior before we went to Brooke's choir concert (I pretty much asked Charlotte if she'd go with me right before the concert and dinner). After the concert, we went to my house and awaited Neil's arrival. Once he arrived, we watched a little bit of The Good Doctor and Musical Comedy Murders. Then Michelle called and we rushed to her house. There I stayed until now, when I just got home. Now I get to madly do homework, which I have avoided all night. Luckily we're in the computer lab tomorrow for history and the TOK paper isn't due until the end of the day.

Tomorrow I'm helping DT with dances for BB games. I don't really know why I volunteered to do this since I don't think any other captains will be there and I dont' knw all of the dances too well (I know maybe 2 of the 4 really well and the other 2 somewhat well). Oh well, they can deal with it. Also, I wish we had musical rehearsal tomorrow because we're a day behind in learning choreography. I really hope Sil is there tomorrow so that I can tell her of my wonderful experience with running rehearsal and the irritation. But that's ok because I had a great time playing Egyptian Rat, talking with Neil and Charlotte, and seeing Michelle. I just wish tomorrow was Thursday. That would be nice. Oh well. I'll be really tired tomorrow. And that's fine (slap)!

My back is killing me. I think it's from my backpack. It just started hurting now. Only when I bend over to pick something up or move in a certain way. Yeah it's great. I'm going to be sooooooo glad when I'm out of Calc 2. That book kills!

Back to a mad homework time! Night.

Excitement=Neil!

I woke up this morning with the knowledge that a certain Neil Wong would be visiting Hilhi today. I cannot express how excited I was. Finally, we saw, hugged, adn I unfortunately had to go to Physics. But in Physics, a certain Margaret Smith won the random number game! Then lunch came and even though Neil said he'd see me then, he did not. However, I forgive him. The day went by and I saw Neil leaving at 3rd period (he did say goodbye, don't worry). 4th came around and the fire alarm went off. So outside we went, where Nathan and I unsuccessfully tried to cut some of our scene (it's really long, anyone volunteer to help us cut it?). 5th came and that is math so it was less than exciting.

Dance team was fun...I guess. We haven't had it in three weeks, so we got back into the swing of things. However, we didn't learn anything new because Heather's boy was really sick, so she wasn't there. So we still don't know what our State theme or song is yet....booo!

After getting out early from DT, I went to Coffee Rush and visited Neil. That was fun! I had a Toasted Marshmellow Hot Chocolate, made especially for me by none other than Neil Wong. It was delicious. Tomorrow, I am going to try teh Mexican Hot Chocolate, anothe rone of his favorites that I should have tried but didn't, so now I am going to. I can't wait!

Also, Michelle comes home tomorrow! Can I get a Woop Woop!

Tomorrow means teaching the rest of The Spanish Panic. Finally! Hopefully some of Song of Love will be taught too. But that depends on if I get anythign done because I have to change what I had becuase it doesn't work that way. Oh well. I'll make it work!

Well, I should go to bed, or do more homework. Hmmm...bed or homework? I'd choose bed, but then tomorrow would be even more hectic than it should be. Night!

The Fan

This show was an interesting one. I enjoyed it, however, it wasn't the best show I've seen. I loved the set, the characters, the costumes...pretty much everything but some of the acting. Some of the actors slipped in and out of their character and what I mean by that is they wouldn't always emote the way they should have if they were truly that character. Now I'm not saying I'm an expert at this play by any means. I'm merely stating that I could tell when something could have been said a littel better than the actor chose to say it. But over all, it was an enjoyable performance. I'm gald I was able to see a Commedia Dell 'Arte show. Now I have an idea of what it should lok like. I wish someone was doing the King Stag. Then I could ask that director what he/she did and my research commission would be really easy. However, that would require a lot of work on my part to change everything I did last year already so I don't think I'll change.

I'm stuck as to what I should do for "Son of Love". I have some of it choreographed, but not very much. Nathan, I am trying desperately to get some clicking of the heels for you, but I don't knwo when to put them in. They have to match perfectly with the music or else I will totally be disatisfied. I promise you they will be in there, the question is...when?

Tomorrow is dance team, the first practice in 3 weeks. Wow that's a long time. Now the fun begins and by fun I mean really hard work because we'll be starting State soon, hopefully tomorrow.

Well, I should get some sleep. I might actually be asleep before midnight if I go now! That's a change. Night.

The Grinch....AKA my last winter show with New Vision

It's sad but true. This production is my last winter show as a highschooler with NVDC. I really wish it would have been Nutcracker, but oh well. This show turned out to be wonderful. I really enjoyed it. I think all of the shows went really well, however, this afternoon wasn't my personal best. But it wasn't taped until this evening so that's good.

I'm excited because tomorrow I'm going to see The Fan. Yay! Unfortunately, this means I won't be able to go to a rehearsal for TYATROF but oh well. So Kirsten, I will not be able to give you a ride...sorry.

Neil, we should get together sometime soon! When is good for you? I hear you'll be working at Coffee Rush. When? What time? Let me know and I'll come visit!

Nathan and Ermine, thank you sooooo much for coming to The Grinch. I appreciate it a lot. Ermine, when are you coming to my studio? Miss Elizabeth is really excited that you're coming. She has great ideas already formulated for recital. Nathan, we should get together sometime to block our scene. And we should hang out in general sometime? Plan? Plan.

I have a lot due on Wed. So I should probably get to it. Eww.

Oh and by the way...

Neil's back!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!! I'm so excited!

AND

Michelle comes home in like 4 days! WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

Musical Comedy Murders Aloha Style

Since the Grinch only took a grand total of 45 minutes, I was able to see most of Aloha's production of "The Musical Comedy Murders of 1940". It was interesting....definitely different than ours. Morgan was my favorite part, not because I know him, but because he was by far the best actor. The guy who played O' Reilly (Colin) was really good, however, sonce I came late because of the Grinch, I didn't see him on stage at the beginning so I didn't see him first come on. However, the parts I did see of him were wonderful. The Ken was very creepy. He looked like a mole, which made him all the more creepy. Roger threw away a lot of his lines, which made me sad. The most disappointing thing to me was how they threw away the miming part between Elsa and Kelly. It just went from one thing to another. Also, names of people and places and shows were pronounced wrong. Like Philo Vance, Boys from Syracuse, Les Sylphedes (or however you spell it). I was shocked because I know Sil would kill us if we didnt' know how to correctly pronounce a real person's name. Each actor said Grossenkneuten differntly. That was interesting. But on a bright note, the set was amazing. I am definitely jealous. Of course, their stage is a lot bigger than ours, but it was really sweet none-the-less. The director wanted me to tell him my hoest opinion. Well, I didn't give him my honest opinion because there were people standing around him and I didn't want to say what I wanted to say in front of all of them. INstead, I said I liked the set and how each person had a mic so that I could hear everything. Oh if you're really curious, Morgan played Eddie. Anyway, yep.

Hary Potter was awesome. I really enjoyed it. It was darker, but had a lot of humor to it. I will definitely go see it again.

Well, I should get some sleep since I've been running around all day on only 2 and a half hours of sleep. Night!

Grinching It

Yesterday and today right after school was Grinch practice. I wasn't too thrilled being there for the first part because I am a Whoville Parent so I just stand on stage and go "Look at the Snow!" and watch a bunch of really wild little kids. I was pretty irritated with them. They were so wild. I was already irritated because Math went horribly. I asked for help and Mr. Allnutt did so, but I still didn't understand. I ended up crying right there infront of him. Also, I missed Musical rehearsal for Grinch. I did so again today. Today the kids were just as irritating as yesterday. It was horrrible. They wouldn't listen and they kept talking really loud on stage and backstage. I really wished I was at Musical rehearsal teaching a dance instead of dealing with little kids, but oh well.

I won't type everythign that bugged me yesterday, like I would have if my computer had worked. So I'll will spare you the agony of reading my venting.

Today wasn't so hot either. I ended up crying in English because I didn't understand what we were doing....yeah I know, weird that I cried, but I think I was just sooooo tired that I couldn't help it. I feel like I just want to give up. I know I shouldn't and I won't, but it's very tempting to do so. I had a Physics and Math test today. I don't know how I did on either, but I get to finish the Math test tomorrow. Yay! Technically the test is tomorrow, btu Alison and I won't be very responsive since we're Harry Pottering it, so he let us take it today. But I didn't finish and since I couldn't stay after school because of Grinch, he's letting me finish tomorrow. I'm so glad. Anyway, I fixed the spots and partners for OUAP. Now everyone has a partner and spots. If anyone else drops, I will kill them....and of course I'm kidding, but I might not speak to them again. No one really knows how hard it is to fix partners and spacing unless you've done it. Yeah, I was fraking out becuase it was relly hard to do, but it is done. Oh and Brooke gets to be in the show. Why? Because we needed another girl and she's goingt o be there all the time helping me anyway so she gets to be in it. Yay!!!!!!!

Well, I should do homework and then hopefully sleep for a bit (yeah right) because in about 3 hours and 30 minutes I'm going to HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!!! I can't wait!

Opening for a Princess

I taught this song today. It went fairly well. I think everyone got it, well most people anyway. Tomorrow I'm teaching Spanish Panic, but I still don't know if what we have so far really goes with the music. I have the music, but I haven't put the dance to the score yet. Oh well. I guess that's tonight's problem that needs solving. After Chorale, I'm going to Alia's to work on our TOK script that's due tomorrow. Then I'll come back home and do more homework. Oh joy. The homework never ends!

Nathan and I ran through our scene for regionals today for the first time. Tomorrow we get to perfrom it for the class. I wish we had blocking or something, but we don't. And that's fine! I'm just excited to have a scene I like because the monologue finding isn't going so well. I found one, but I don't think it's a good one. But I guess it'll work for tomorrow.

I must go to Chorale now so goodnight!

Musical Intensive

Well, I just got back from the Musical Theatre Intensive thing. I must say that I was rather disappointed. It was more of a musical theatre introduction. I was really disappointed in the vocal part of it. It seemed just like a voice lesson, only a group voice lesson. I didn't learn anything important that I didn't already know. The dancing part was fun. It was easy, but it was fun none-the-less. We did a dance from Guys and Dolls. I learned that most choreographers don't care if you screw up so long as you show that you are willing to try hard. I learned much more in this part of the intensive than I did in the vocal part. Then the acting came. It was interesting. We did a little tactic exercise. That was fun. I learned probably the most from this part. I guess the people running this thing should have been clearer because I thought that it was a musical theatre audition intensive, but it turned out to be advice on musical theatre auditions...helpful, but not what I was expecting.

Besides Bubba, Melissa Fults and Jordan (I forget his last name...P_____) were there. So I did know 2 other people. It was nice seeing them there.

Before the intensive, I had an interview with someone from Syracuse University. It was nerve wracking, but I did ok. Actually, that is a lie....it wasn't really nerve wracking. At first it was, but I really didn't feel like I was at an interview. I felt more like I was just talking to someone. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Anywho, it's over and I'm glad.

Well, I should get my english essay perfected....fat chance that'll happen. I'll try to make it as perfect as I can. Oh essays.

Singing, Singing At the Needham's House

This morning I sang at the Needham's house for Chorale. It was fun...though my upper register wasn't functioning properly so I couldn't always hit the high notes. After that, I went to Grinch practice. I danced in my really old and broken pointe shoes because my new pointe shoes haven't come yet. Oh well, it's only 4 performances I need to use them.

After Grinch, I worked on choreography for Once Upon a Mattress (OUAP, just so I won't have to type it over and over again). I finished "Opening for a Princess" and am pretty happy with it. I just hope that everyone will get it. I think the hardest thing in it is the shasse's. And yes Charlotte, you do get to dance with Nathan. You can give me presents later (just kidding). After finishing this, I worked a bit on Spanish Panic. I called Sil this morning and she said to choreograph as if we were doing it just like the CD, so that's what I did. Brooke helped me choreograph and I'm pretty excited about it. It's not done yet, but it will be. Though I think I'm going to have to change it if there is dialogue while people are dancing. Oh well. We'll see what happens.

Well, I need to work on my English paper because I refuse to type it tomorrow. I'll fix it tomorrow if I hate it, but I will not be typing it. So good night!

I Like Ham

Tonight I danced at the Ham Dinner at West Union. It was...fun? I really didn't know any of the dances we were doing, but apparently I looked like I did. So basically I am the queen of faking it. I win! The ham and green beans were good. There were mashed potatoes, but I don't like mashed potatoes so I didn't have any but I'm sure they were good too. After the Ham Dinner, Courtney and her family, Bubba, and my family and I went to Halvetia Tavern for some "real food", as Brooke says. I ate off of Brooke's plate, since I ate ham and beans. The hamburger she had was good. Also the root beer was good too. I like root beer.

Before West Union, I slept in until 1:30. My alarm actually woke me up, so I could have slept some more if it hadn't have gone off. But I probably would have missed voice lessons if it hadn't gone off, so it was a good thing it did. Voice was ok. I couldn't sing as well as I normally do, but whatever. As long as I'm better by Sunday night I'll be fine. While Kirsten was having her lesson, I had a wonderful conversation with Morgan. It started with me going to tell him that I was mad at him for not staying after the play to say hi to me. Karen told me to tell him I was mad at him (saying it not thinking I actually would), so I did. I have surprised peopel a lot lately. I kind of like it. Anyway, then we just started talking about different things. It was fun. He's now one of my myspace friends, which makes me have....I think 36 friends? That's exciting for me, especially since myspace still confuses me a bit and I don't really post there often. So yeah, that was exciting.

I worked on my Black Boy essay for a bit. And by worked, I mean highlighted the key passages that were only somewhat highlighted due to my pink highlighter not working and attempting to find a passage to write on. I think I'll write on the one after he reads Mencken's book. I should be able to write 2-3 pages on that right?

Tomorrow is goign to be hectic. I'm singing at 9 AM with Chorale at Linda Needham's house, then leaving early to go to Grinch, then going home to do homework. I wish I had no homework. That's be nice. But alas I do. And I'll try to get something from Mattress choregoraphed.

NOTE TO SELF: talk to Sil tomorrow about no dance team monday, not being at practice wed or thurs, and if i could borrow the score to mattress so i can choreograph spanish panic.

Opening for a Choreographer

Brooke and I tried to choreograph some of the Spanish Panic. We did about 16 measures, then I remembered that the Spanish Panic on the CD is different than in the show. Curse! What I really need is the actual score to the show. I was able to obtain the script so I would at least know what was going on, but I still can't get the Spanish Panic done until I get the score so I know how many measures I really have. From the Spanish Panic, I tried to choreograph the opening number (the Pas). That proved harder than it seems. I think this dance would be easier if I just had Ermine and Emma over to choreograph with them. Possibly I could use the studio too, that would be really helpful if I decide to do any lifts or moving at all. I feel like a failure because I have no ideas for the songs Sil wants me to have done by next week. Which reminds me, I get to tell her that I won't be at the practices on Wed or Thurs due to Grinch Dress and Tech rehearsal. Yeah, so I won't be choreographing on those days and so it is pretty pointless to try and teach the Spanish Panic on Tues. I think I'll teach Opening for a Princess instead...that is if I get any inspiration for choreography. And Nathan, I'd definitely incorporate some disco if I could, but I think Sil would fire me. I really wish I had thought of asking Sil for the score as well as the script. However, I don't think she'd give it to me....perhaps she would have made a copy though. That would have been useful. I think I'll go to the library and see if they have any scores for Once Upon a Mattress. I kind of doubt it, but I'll try. I'm so frustrated! Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

Today wasn't such a bad day school wise. I was up late doing homework, English as usual. I woke up, went to 0 period, had a discussion in english, and did calculus homework in physics.
Then lunch came. Have I mentioned how much I love lunch time? Then the dreaded history test came. I don't know how I did; hopefully better than last time. Drama was the best, as always. We did these scenes that were from a packet Sil had given us. A lot of them were funny....actually most of them were funny. Also, Nathan found a scene for us to do. I like it a lot. It's from Barefoot in the Park. However, it's about 3 pages long, 6 front and back, so some cutting will need to take place. But I'm really excited! Charlotte came to visit during drama. We went around feeling people's hair and decided that Josh has the softest hair in Drama. I don't remember who came in second....Nathan or James....I think it was James, but Nathan came in a close third. Math was ok. I didn't have to take home my book! Yay!!!!!

After play practice, which went ok (not everyone was there), I took Amber and Kirsten home and Bubba to dance. On our way, we stopped by Bubba's house so he could get something. Josh and Jes were playing basketball and we joined in. I think Bubb, Josh, and I won, even though we didn't keep score. I think we won because we kept scoring baskets. I even made it in the one time I shot the ball. That was fun.

Tomorrow, I get to sleep in! Wooopeeee!!!!! Thena busy night lay ahead. After voice lessons, I am going to West Union to dance at the Ham Dinner. I KNow that doesn't seem like a lot, but voice and dance are pretty much right on top of each other. Yeah, I can't wait...and that's a lie because I really can. We're doing some dances I'm still not fully comfortable with. But oh well.

Neil and Michelle, I can't wait until you come home! I'm counting the days!

Lots of love!

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I really don't know wat to call tis post so tat is my reasoning for the question mark.

Let's see....my day started with me waking up frozen to death because my room is the coldest one in the house. But luckily Mom was awake and checking on me and got me a sleeping bag. I then went to sleep for another our before I had to wake up. Ten I went to school to help come up with a dance for the teachers for the can drive. I did this with Melanie and Miaka. Then school started.

In physics, I paired people up for the Spanish Panic, only to find out that some partners needed changing due to dancing abilities. Lunch was fun, as usual. 3rd period, Alia and I did our TOK assignment and then I fixed the pairing. Drama was fun. Sil wasn't there so I was "in charge". And by in charge I mean I told everyone what we were doing and gave some announcements. Tomorrow, we're supposed to have a potential scene or monologue for regionals. I remember Sil giving us at least 2 weeks to look, and we have only gotten 2 days. Anywho, I had a fun time looking through scenes and monologues. Nathan and I found some scenes that were funny, however one involved me being black so that was out of the picture. I also looked at scenes with Emma. And by looked for scenes, I really mean there was a group of us reading off titles that amused us and read silently to ourselves the scenes that had potential. So don't worry, we were productive, just in an amusing sort of way. Math came along and was a little better. I ended up staying after to get help. I felt really dumb because I asked for Mr. Allnutt to check each step and on some problems had to have him explain each step. But oh well, at least the assignment is done and is correct and I somewhat understand better. Now I just need to tackle tonight's assignment.....but that'll just have to wait until tomorrow.

I had a lovely conversation with Nathan. Unfortunately, I had to cut it shorter than it could have gone because I loked at the clock and decided I needed to get Denny homework done so that I wouldn't be up until 2 AM reading, since we had 60 pages to read tonight. owever, our conversation lasted....how long do you think Nathan....at least 25 mintues? I don't really know. I meant to check on my phone but I closed my phone before I checked. Yes, I'm weird and like to keep track of how long my phone conversations last. Nathan, you make me happy!

I am at a loss for the choreoraphy for Once Upon a Mattress. The sons just don't stimulate me like Into the Woods did. My first task was the Finale, which I finished tonight and teach tomorrow. I really think it stinks. The only movement I saw in my mind for it was swaying adn acting to the words. I mean really. For a finale that's pretty weak. I hate not knowing what's going on. I think that's part of the problem too. There is no way for me to watch what was previously done until the movie comes out in Decmeber. Choreography can't wait that long. My next task is Opening for a Princess. It is 2 minutes long and again I see no real dancing for it. Just a lot of acting to the words (their own interpretation of the words too because it's look dumb if everyone moved the same way at the same time with the same expression). The only songs I think I'll be truely satisfied with are the opening number with the Pas and the Spanish Panic. Why was Into the Woods so much more fun to choreograph? Why is this one so hard? I hate this feeling.

Well, I should study for my test in history tomorrow. Night.

Dance = My Outlet

I went to dance to drop Brooke off. Then I talked to Heather about muscial stuff, which turned into a big long conversation about today. I can't say how much Heather means to me. Not only does she listen, but she gives advice. Good advice. I appreciate her so much.

I came home, did 30 minutes of homework and went to jazz to let it all out. Now I feel a lot better. Also, I talked to Elizabeth for a littel bit, which helped tremendously. Now I am back at home and going to do more homework.

Thank you to everyone who suffered through my previous post. I feel a lot better. And I think I'd rather not talk about today tomorrow. I am going to take these next three weeks one step at a time. I will make it through without another mental break down. I will. I will. I love you all!

IB is Killing Me!

That's right. I hate IB. HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't stand every teacher thinking that their class is the most important so they pile on a but load of homework. The only classes I have yet to get an excessive amount in are Physics and Theatre. Granted TOK hasn't given me too much trouble recently, but we have an assignment due on Thursday and everything else in the world is due Thursday. Here let me show you:

Thursday- History: Test, Internal Assessment part 1 thing due, Summary of Evidence due
TOK: 10 Guidelines due
Musical: Finale choreographed

Ok, so not everything is due and I know Sil won't kill me if I don't have the finale done, but still....History gives so much homework. I haven't started the IA stuff yet. I guess some of that is my fault, but English is taking over my life! I have no time for other homework. I can't do the things I want to because of homework. For example, today I was planning on going to a dance class I haven't been to in forever and this will be the last time in about 3 months I'll get to go and I can't because I have so much homework to do.

English: read at least 30 pages each night AND take notes on 2 key passages, 3 key phrases/lines, and 3 key words. Essay on a key passage due Monday.

Math: don't even get me started. I don't understand what we're doing right now...though no one does. I didn't understand last night's homework. I don't understand tonight's homework. And he just won't stop and make sure we all understand completely. No one knows what we're supposed to do. We've told him that no one understands, but he just won't slow down. I HATE HATE HATE HATE math and I wish I had dropped out when I had the chance. Now I spend the remainder of the day in depression because I don't understand and so I try to do the homework but I can't. I want to burn the book! I wish second tri was here. At least TOK and math would be gone.

TOK isn't too bad. It's just that I have to put everything for that class aside while I do English. I'm not behind in TOK. It's just that I don't do my best because i'm so worried about english. So I think I'll have an A no problem in TOK, it's just that I will not have gotten as good of a grade or experience as I could have.

English keeps me up until 2 AM every morning. No joke. Granted some of the fault lies with me....like not starting english until 10, but still. That's 4 hours!!!!!!! And if I want any outlet at all, I need to dance. So that's why I start homewrok so late. I'm tired of staying up really late and gettting up really early. I'm tired of my senior year being the most stressful time in my life. What happened to it being the best? Easiest? Yeah, IB I know.

I had a mental break down today. It didn't start at home either. It started in math. We were learning new material and I couldn't handle it. I really wanted to get up and leave and go to Sil and talk to her. Instead I sat for 20 minutes in class crying silently to myself. Then I couldn't take it any more. I broke down crying while driving home. I called Mom and we talked, while I sobbed. Dangerous while driving I know, but I couldn't help it. I tried to stop crying. But that didn't work. Well, now I must go to take Brooke to dance so that I can got home and do homework.

Senior year should be fun! Why do I feel so depressed? I HATE IB!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I know some teacher read what students put on their blogs and the internet and I hope they read this so they know how each one of them is really stressing out the IB students.

Once Upon a Mattress

Kirsten beat me to it, but tis list is mainly for my own personal record.

Minstrel- Sam Robinson
Jester- Mark McSpadden
Queen- Crystal Carlisle (ME)
Winnefred- Kirsten Kamna
King-Arrio Gramm
Sir Harry- Taylor Messinger
Lady Larkin- Evy Shadrach
Sir Studley- Ben Noyes
Dauntless- Nathan Daniels
Wizard- Ryan Lum
Sir Luce- Ermine Todd
Knights 1- Brian Massey, 2-Bubba Likes, 3-Cody Barnes
Princess #12- Katherine McNichol
Lady Rowina- Christa Arends
Lady- Meryl- Amanda Schneider
Lady Lucille- Kira Batchellor
Kitchen Wench- Amber Kraft
Kitchen Wench #2- Athena DeGuzma
Emily- Emma Larkins
Lady Mabelle- Charlotte Smith
Lady H- Leah Fifer
Lady R- Chloe Hansen
Sir Harold- Bubba Likes
Lady Beatrice- Amanda Hoyt
Knights and Ladies- Josh Bateman, Jes Tharud, Ryan Holscher, Michael Hosgapple?, David Henning, Bobby Gonzalez, Cody Fletcher, Athena DeGuzma, Amber Williams, Erica LeBlanc, Jesnghyan? Kim, Jasmine Z, Megan Scott, Jade Halpen
Spanish Panic Lead Dancers- Bubba Likes, Amanda Hoyt
Opening Number Dancers- Prince: Ermine Todd, Princess: Crystal Carlisle, Queen: Emma Larkins

And there you have it. The cast. Now I get the wonderful task of choreographing every number in the show. Yay. I start with the Finale and have to have it done by Thursday. It shouldn't be too big of a problem because it's pretty much everyone in a clump except Winnefred and Dauntless. Yeah, it won't be too hard.

I'm really excited for the Opening Number because it is a Pas de Deux. I get to dance a Pas for once in my life! And I get to choreograph it so I can make it look really cool! I think I'm most excited about that dance.

Well, I should continue with my homework so, good night!

Sleep

As of right now, I am watching something on OPB. It something to do with Broadway shows and famous people singing them....though I think it's more to do with the Boston Pops. I really don't know what it's called because there hasn't been a commercial yet. It's an interesting program.

I got about 12 hours of sleep, so that was really nice. I wish I could sleep like that all the time. I certainly woulnd't be tired all the time.

We sat down for about 2 hours and filled out Otterbein's application. It took 2 hours because we were trying to think of all of my honors and awards and extra things and such. There were times when we'd sit there trying to remember and suddenly something would come to one of us. Anyhow, it's filled out and now we just need to send it.

I went to Legand of Zorro. It was good. Some of the stunts seemed unreal, but hey, it was a good movie anyway.

I need to finish Black Boy now so night.

SAT

I woke up this morning to take the SAT's at 6:30. I was sooooooo tired! But I think I did ok. I picked up Charlotte and we headed over the Glencoe for some test taking. Then I dropped her off at her house and went to dance for Grinch practice. From here, I went home and waited. Alia was supposed to come over at 6:00 and Sil was supposed to call me sometime tonight. Well, neither happened. Alia ended up coming over at 7:30, which was fine by me, and Sil probably just forgot to call. I might call her tomorrow because if she wants a finale done really soon, which she does, I'll need to know who's who (people!....gross, fall play lines) in the musical. So I might call her or I might wait until Monday...but I'd rather have the list tomorrow. Anyway, Alia and I did some mad TOK homework and it looks wonderful.

Ryan and a few other cast memebers went to see "Jarhead" tonight. I was invited, but I couldn't go because I was doing homework and also Mom said I really should get some sleep and it's rated R and a war movie....I don't really like war movies. However, I wish I could've gone just for the sake of being with the cast. But oh well, the show started at 10:20 (tu-tu, toes shoes, leo, and corn. corn? what's corn?) and we weren't done with homework until about 10:50. Yes, I could have walked in late, but that would be lame....especially paying $8 to not even see the whole show. So, I'm here instead...going to read some Black Boy. I hope I can stay awake. I'm really tired, but the reading is very long so I should read some of it tonight.

Well, tomorrow means a day of homework and college apps. Yay.

Good night, Sleep tight. And pleasant dreams to you.
Adios. Au revoir. Alvedersaine. Adieu.
And now til we meet again.
Adios. Au revoir. Alvedersaine. Good night!

So I can't spell Alvedersaine, but that's ok. I'll pretend.

Last Fall Play

Tonight was the last fall play I'll be in at Hilhi. Weird to say. It went ok. It was not our best performance, but it wasn't horrible. I could go ranting and raving about the drama that ensued, but that would be repetitive for those who have heard, which are most of you. So for your sakes, I won't repeat the stories, but maybe some other time when I don't have to take the SAT's in the morning.

Reading auditions went ok. I didn't do as well as I could have, but I never do. And I had to read first when we did the Winnefred scene, so it wasn't as good as it could have been. Kirsten, I thought you did really well. I enjoyed listening to you.

Today was a day where my tolorence for stupidity was zero. It was horrible. I was really irritated and pretty much mean to stupid people today. I don't really understand. Amber was the same though so we had a great time being mean to other stupid people. We're horrible, I know.

The power went out in 3rd period today. That was a good time. It stayed out until the middle of 4th period. I taught Josh and Jes the dance for auditions during drama and played Egyptian Rat. We didn't have a claer winner because I was called away to watch Othello and I'm sure Sil made the rest actually do some work. Just to let you know, drama was 4th and the lights were out for half of it, so that's why I was dancing and playing card games. It was fun.

Well, I have the dreaded SAT's tomorrow so I should get some sleep. I didn't have time to study so it'll be an adventure. Charlotte and I are driving together, since she doesn't know where Glencoe is. We might go do something afterwards, but I do have Grinch practice, so that'll depend on when SAT's get done. I hope it's really quick. Well, that's all folks. Night.

Cause for Yesterday

There is only one reason for my actions and feelings...Ovaries acting up.

This morning I felt horrible. I seriously considered staying home, but missing one day of IB classes is death, so I went. The day was eh, until 3rd period where I found out wy I had been feeling horrible. I wasn't prepared for the news so I didn't have anything with me. Luckily someone did. Everything was better when Drama came along. We played 2 great games of Mafia...with Sil. She decided to party for a bit with us while the SLer's watched "Much Ado". After playing, we popped popcorn and watched "Othello". My happiness soon melted away because I know I failed my first high school math test. I wanted to cry and I didn't remember how to do a lot of what was asked, so I guessed on a lot of the multiple choice. Some of the regular problems I don't think I did correct either. I really don't want to know what I got on this test and when I find out, I know I'll be very depressed. I was in tears, but didn't actually cry, during and after math.

My depression went away when I taught the dance for the dancing part of the auditions. That was fun. I really enjoyed watching Nathan dance because sometimes he just stood there and laughed because he messed up, which made me laugh. After auditions, Ryan, Arrio, Amber, Kirsten, Emma, Nathan, and Charlotte stayed to do homework and talk. We really didn't do any homework, but had a great time talking. Arrio even carried me to the cafeteria, where Alison was going to get pied. However, she wasn't there so e carried me for nothing (I didn't have my soes on and it was a spur of the moment thing). So he can now boast to all that he has carried me, with my permission. I don't believe I have ever given anyone that privilege before. Yeah, I know, it's really something to boast about.

The performance went ok. The audience was pretty responsive. I saved Christina from making a mistake se had made once upon a time ago. She almost started into this one part that comes later in the play, but I said part of er line to er in a question form so tat se went back on the right track. Whew! That could have been horrible, but I know we would have pulled it off if we had gone down that path.

After the performance, some of us went to Red Robins. Tonight was the official eat out night because some can't go tomorrow because of SAT's and band on saturday. However, some people didn't go to Red Robins. Oh well, they are just losers! Anyway, Nathan was supposed to go with Charlotte, but somehow ended up riding with me and then she left and I ended up taking 7 people in my car that only holds 6. It was a party. Red Robins was fun. I took Kirsten and Amber home. Dropped Nathan off, not without talking for a bit with the parents, then dropped Josh off at his house, and then went home. I did some homework and now need to finish reading Black Boy. I'm finally caught up on notes, but now need to read and take more notes. So I'm behind again. I may just go to bed so tat I won't feel horrible tomorrow. I don't know...we'll see. Night.

The Rollercoaster Effect

Today was a rollercoaster of a day. I started with a refreshing 8 and a half hours of sleep. With this sleep also came the knowledge that I hadn't finished the Black Boy reading. I was just too tired last night to finish so indtead I got the correct amount of sleep. So I went to 1st period and did some reading while we watched a movie. 2nd period came and I got to do the class problem. That was fun. The we got our tests back and I din't do too hot. This made me sad because I had taken notes and thought I knew what I was talking about. Some of the questions were dumb mistakes like I had changed my answer from te correct one to the wrong one. Others were ones he hadn't taught us so we didn't knwo and some got it right purely by guessing. Anyway, then we get part 2 of this test and I get 100%. Before you jump for joy, I'll tell you it was only worth 9 points and it didn't move my grade up any. So lunch comes and I do Amber's haor and we have a nice talk with Sil. Then 3rd rolls around and I suddenly become ill. I felt weak and dizzy and cold and a little short of breath.

While listening to Neville's talk on Stalin, I have a vision of the play and I was looking on this vision as an observer, not myself. I see me on stage with a few people and suddenly I faint. The cast gathers around me and says things like, "Elsa, are you alright?" Finally when that doesn't revive me, they break character and call Sil. While still in this vision, I think to myself that I would never allow myself to faint on stage. So the scene rewinds and instead of fainting on teh spot, I say, "excuse me" and run off stage. I grab Nathan, who was not on stage, anmd tell him to tell Sil that I can't perform because I'm going to faint. As he's running to tell Sil this, I faint, but as the observer I see him running around the stage to the light booth. Then I came out of this trance and hoped that it wasn't a sign of tonight's performance.

After a while, Jake started playing with my calculator and pencil bag. It was really annoying and I snapped at him. I felt really bad afterwards, but I was just in a bad mood. 4th finally comes and I do Emma's hair. Then HL 2 people go and watch Othello. I felt fine then. 5th period comes and the sickness comes again. Alison told me to eat something, only no one has any food. Well, we have a test tomorrow and I had the choice of either studying for the test or doing the homework that's due Monday. Well, I chose do teh homework because then I wouldn't have to do it later. This was a bad choice because it took me 30 minuntes to do 3 problems bacause I re-did 2 problems at least 4 times because I kept doing stupid mistakes or didn't understand how the book got a certain answer. i usually got most of the answer correct, just a little part of it had gone awry. Well, this made me really frusterated and I started to cry.

It was time to go to the auditions and I really didn't want to do them. I didn't want to be at school anymore. I wanted Sil to jsut say, "Here is your part. Don't bother singing for me". I would have loved that. Anyway, Emma, Charlotte, and I were lucky enough to be able to sit in Sil's office while auditions were going on. I went fairly early and thought at fisrt that Christa and I were going to sing together and then we'd sing separately. But I ended up singing first, which threw me off, so I didn't do my best by far. But lucky for me Sil knows how I sing so she can judge me on other choir things too. Once the audition was over, I went to do homework. I read Black Boy and finally got done with the reading from the night before. However, on this path to being done, I encountered many obsticles. Mainly, it was talking with Emma and/or Charlotte, depending on who was in the room at the time. Another obsticle was the people in the choir room. They were playing the same songs over and over again and the songs weren't the audition songs. It got really annoying. I coulnd't handle it. I told Emma that I should just open the door and scream and then shut it and see what happens. She agreed. In about 30 seconds, I had my chance. I stood up, opened the door, screamed in outrage, and slammed the door. I looked at Emma and we started laughing histerically because neither of us had thougt I would actually do it. Soon after, banging commenced on the door to see what happened.

On a better note, the play went fairly decently. Tere wer a few minor screw ups. But over all not too bad. And no, I didn't faint.

Well, I am caught up on my Black Boy reading. Now I just need to transfer my passages and such to paper. Oh joy. And I have a math test tomorrow that I haven't studied for yet. That'll be fun.

I think if I get a few college apps out of the way, I'd feel better. Actually, if I had the 2 essays from last year perfected, the research commission from last year perfected, 3 play analysis's done, SAT's done for good, and my Extended Essay done (not necessarily perfected), I'd feel a lot better. But alas, I don't have any of those things completed the way I'd like. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Stress Yet Totally Calm

Why am I stressed? SAT's this weekend, math test Thrsday, closing of the play this weekend, Century coming to the performance tomorrow, plan of investigation and summary of evidence due next Thursday, musical auditions tomorrow, keeping up witht eh readings and notes for Black Boy, TOK assignments/projects, TOK paper for IB, Extended Essay, college applications...so much to do and so little time.

Why am I totally calm? Well, that statemnet is really a total lie, except for the musical audition. I'm really not that nervous at all. I found myself thinking, "I don't really care". Now whether that meant what part I get or I don't care about auditions in general, I don't know. But I find myself totally at ease when I think of this audition. While others are freaking out, I find myself thinking, "Another audition...whatever" You know the feeling? I might feel this way because of something she said to me earlier, or because she wants me to choreograph everything in the musical so I know I'll do something in it anyway, or....I really don't know. I'm just not nervous at all. Now, that might change tomorrow, but I really just want to get it over with.

Bubba and I had a nice talk with Heather today. We went to ask her if we could try-out for the musical and she said yes, though she was concerned about the dates. Nothing conlicts except the usual Mondays and Wednesdays. So I'm going to hopefully fix that. I know Auntie Cathie would go balistic if she knew I was pretty much doing someone else's job, but I'm afraid it won't get done if I don't do it and then that would cause conflict and suddenly people would have to choose between dance team and the plays. I wouldn't want that. So i get to do the dirty work and negotiate with Sil. Hopefully we'll get to do it like last year, where we missed Mondays and Wednesdays of play practice until January, and then showed up to practice at 5:30 (when it started) so that the dance teamers could do both dance team and play practice. That would be rally nice if that could happen again.

Well, I should do some Black Boy now. And then it's either History reading log or sleep. I might choose the latter.